Use Somebody

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep.
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat.
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice.

Why is it?

That your smile is so damn alluring.

Misconstrued Relationships

There is something about you that keeps me pursuing. I understand that we are not in the that position in life to make any sort of 'commitments' because of potential consequences, ambitions, and other aspirations in life. I commend you for that. And if the pieces fall in place then so be it. But for now, let's sail where the wind blows. Life is unpredictable so anything can happen. I think that's the greatest joy in life: to live not without regrets but freely of them. 

Thanks for that talk Polly and John.

Unphogettable (6:33:16 PM): meh with girls

Unphogettable (6:33:21 PM): they don't think about friendships and relationships

Unphogettable (6:33:24 PM): the same way guys do

tandks85 (6:33:34 PM): yeah

Unphogettable (6:33:39 PM): with girls, because they share their feelings and whatnot with their girlfriends

Unphogettable (6:33:44 PM): when guys do it, they think it's the same thing

Unphogettable (6:33:52 PM): but with guys, we only open up with people we super care about

Unphogettable (6:34:06 PM): so when a guy tries to make a move the girl gets caught off guard and offendes

Unphogettable (6:34:16 PM): and thinks that the guy was just friend with her to get into her pants

Unphogettable (6:34:20 PM): which of course isn't true

tandks85 (6:34:45 PM): you're totally right

Unphogettable (6:34:49 PM): so when a girl connects with the guy on that intimate level, it's easy for guys to misconstrue that as maybe her wanting something more

Unphogettable (6:34:56 PM): girls dont get that

Unphogettable (6:35:12 PM): and when a guy likes a girl and their friendship grows, it's natural to want to date them

Unphogettable (6:35:18 PM): cuz hey, we get along

Unphogettable (6:35:22 PM): let's spend more time together

Unphogettable (6:36:06 PM): so that's why

Unphogettable (6:36:20 PM): i feel if a move isn't made

Unphogettable (6:36:29 PM): then it will never happen on the girl's end

Unphogettable (6:36:40 PM): because they see it as another friendship that they hae

Unphogettable (6:36:42 PM): *have

tandks85 (6:38:07 PM): hmmm food for thoughts that's for sure. 

Unphogettable (6:38:16 PM): just my opinon, i dont know

Unphogettable (6:38:52 PM): but yeah, not to misconstrue anything i say as like

Unphogettable (6:38:54 PM): girl bashing

Unphogettable (6:39:01 PM): it's just we approach relationships and friendships different

Unphogettable (6:39:10 PM): and we, as guys, should understand that

Unphogettable (6:39:15 PM): and make obvious our intentions

Unphogettable (6:39:27 PM): because if a we're sharing stuff with a girl, we want more, but they dont know that

Unphogettable (6:39:30 PM): when we think we're being super obvious

Unphogettable (6:39:43 PM): they think we're just being friends

tandks85 (6:40:03 PM): yeah haven't really thought of it that way 

tandks85 (6:40:08 PM): it's making sense now 

Unphogettable (6:40:21 PM): so if you ask her, use the word date

Unphogettable (6:40:26 PM): that's as obvious as it can get

Unphogettable (6:40:28 PM): without being super strong

Unphogettable (6:40:29 PM): lol

Favorite Quotes

"There's nothing like the Eureka moment of discovering, something that no one knew before. I won't compare it to sex, but it last longer."
- Steven Hawking

The Quote Book

Self-explanatory, I should really keep track of some unforgettable, classic, genuine conversations here:

-----------------------3/18/2012-----------------------

White Noise

DancerNboardr408 (1:08:27 AM): would you happen to know
DancerNboardr408 (1:08:27 AM): if
DancerNboardr408 (1:08:34 AM): we can download this?
tandks85 (1:08:53 AM): I honestly do not know but I can gurantee you that some nigguh right now is recording this
DancerNboardr408 (1:09:05 AM): haahahaa
tandks85 (1:09:06 AM): and when that gets released you and I will be on that like hot pancakes
DancerNboardr408 (1:09:12 AM): LOL
DancerNboardr408 (1:09:16 AM): hot pancakes.
tandks85 (1:09:26 AM): i want some meow
DancerNboardr408 (1:09:30 AM): LOL
DancerNboardr408 (1:09:37 AM): and Im the one whose faded...
tandks85 (1:09:43 AM): who smiles alot
DancerNboardr408 (1:09:46 AM): who"s
DancerNboardr408 (1:09:56 AM): lol
tandks85 (1:09:59 AM): LOLOLOL
DancerNboardr408 (1:10:00 AM): not really
tandks85 (1:10:07 AM): 10 second delay response ftw
DancerNboardr408 (1:10:12 AM): HAHAHA
DancerNboardr408 (1:10:14 AM): damn it...

-----------------------3/18/2012-----------------------

Home Drunk Home

Khoi Nguyen:

Alright homie
Sweet dreams man
Get home ...
err in bed safe
Tje fuk ma I saying?

Tan Le:
jesus christ khoi LOL
-----------------------3/18/2012-----------------------

Electric Daisy Nipples

T: just imagine EDC meow
shit's gonna be cray
im gonna be running around shirtless with neon yellow nips
A: LOLLLLL body paint?
T: YOU AIN'T DOWN!
A: you're a slut
LOLL
T: only for that night lol
A: AHHAHHA well put
for the weekend*
-----------------------1/13/2009-----------------------

The JB Effect

hella agg (12:16:01 AM): who works
hella agg (12:16:05 AM): in the office
TanDKS85 (12:16:07 AM): OH
hella agg (12:16:07 AM): random cute girl?
TanDKS85 (12:16:09 AM): ugh
TanDKS85 (12:16:12 AM): random cute girl
TanDKS85 (12:16:14 AM): (assuming)
hella agg (12:16:16 AM): go for it tan
hella agg (12:16:17 AM): is she 16
hella agg (12:16:18 AM): haha
TanDKS85 (12:16:20 AM): 18
TanDKS85 (12:16:21 AM): o_o
TanDKS85 (12:16:22 AM): LOL
hella agg (12:16:23 AM): aw
hella agg (12:16:24 AM): too old for you

-----------------------11/20/2011-----------------------

Gender Role Exchange

bboyKdash (1:20:31 PM): F***
bboyKdash (1:20:35 PM): I'm getting completrely lazy
bboyKdash (1:20:38 PM): How's homework?
bboyKdash (1:20:41 PM): Am I bothhering you?
tandks85 (1:20:42 PM): hahah
bboyKdash (1:20:43 PM): Do I sound like a girl?

-----------------------2/1/2012-----------------------

Asian Confusion

hella agg (1:33:08 AM): well the first thing i was thinking of is banh gio
tandks85 (1:33:24 AM): banh gio is something else.
hella agg (1:33:28 AM): right
hella agg (1:33:29 AM): these are like
hella agg (1:33:30 AM): mini versions
hella agg (1:33:31 AM): i think
hella agg (1:33:34 AM): and you eat it with fish sauce
hella agg (1:33:35 AM): or something
tandks85 (1:33:48 AM): OHHHH
tandks85 (1:33:52 AM): I KNOWWW
tandks85 (1:33:57 AM): sometimes there fucking
tandks85 (1:34:00 AM): shrimp in there too
hella agg (1:34:00 AM): they're kind of like
hella agg (1:34:01 AM): bite size
hella agg (1:34:02 AM): YES'
hella agg (1:34:02 AM): SHRIMP
tandks85 (1:34:03 AM): with the hard shell
tandks85 (1:34:04 AM): YESSS
tandks85 (1:34:06 AM): lmfao
hella agg (1:34:06 AM): WHAT IS THAT
tandks85 (1:34:12 AM): FUCKKKK my mom is sleeping
hella agg (1:34:15 AM): lolol


-----------------------11/22/2011-----------------------

A Universe's Afterthought

T: So what do you think about our universe, Kathy?
K: Well we are something that came from something that had to be something when something was something.
Right?
T: Yeah, something like that haha.

-----------------------3/21/2012-----------------------

Mandling Business

12:55 PM Duy Quoc Le --CNTR
Dude if you were here
12:55 PM Duy Quoc Le --CNTR
we could MANDLE

-----------------------3/26/2012-----------------------

Eureka

Tan Le --CNTR
welp there's the answer we have been waiting for


2:16 PMDuy Quoc Le --CNTR
What answer?

2:17 PMTan Le --CNTR
james sent out an email
check it
it's actually feasible

2:19 PM Duy Quoc Le --CNTR

I WAS rIGHT
SCheduled PUSH!!!
DU MA!

2:19 PMTan Le --CNTR
goood shit son

2:19 PMDuy Quoc Le --CNTRI
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asdkl;fjdsaklfjadsl;kfjdsakl;fjsakl;dfjl;dsakjfkl;dsajfldsakjfdsalkjf
asdlkfjadsklfjdsa
I SAID THAT!

2:20 PMTan Le --CNTR
lololoo

2:20 PMDuy Quoc Le --CNTR
GiVE ME HIS PAYCHECK!

2:20 PMTan Le --CNTR
desktop engineer in the house?


2:20 PMDuy Quoc Le --CNTR
I FUCKING CALLE DTHAT SHIT

-----------------------5/14/2012-----------------------
The High Effect
hella agg (10:28:45 PM): you seemed like you were having a good time lol
tandks85 (10:28:50 PM): hahaha
tandks85 (10:28:54 PM): i really was
tandks85 (10:28:59 PM): beats drinking for sure
tandks85 (10:29:33 PM): i ended up in a 3 way video conference with her and her other gal friend
tandks85 (10:29:36 PM): we were all baked tandks85 (10:29:38 PM): shit was hilarious tandks85 (10:30:07 PM): never hugged/snuggled a roll of paper towels so passionately before tandks85 (10:30:09 PM): LOL
hella agg (10:31:03 PM): looool
-----------------------6/14/2012-----------------------
Steps 1, 3, and 2.
tandks85 (4:46:24 AM): i just found out the proper way
tandks85 (4:46:27 AM): to care for your mouth
tandks85 (4:46:48 AM): apparently you have to use mouth rinse AFTER brushing
tandks85 (4:47:03 AM): wtf? I thought you do it after flossing .___.
hella agg (4:47:20 AM): ...
hella agg (4:47:23 AM): how did you just find this out lolol
tandks85 (4:47:41 AM): LOL, there is science behind this too
tandks85 (4:47:42 AM): fml.
tandks85 (4:47:48 AM): cause i was taking a dump
tandks85 (4:47:52 AM): and reading the directions
tandks85 (4:47:54 AM): on the fucking
tandks85 (4:47:56 AM): mouth-rinse
tandks85 (4:48:03 AM): and it said to rinse AFTER brushing
tandks85 (4:48:06 AM): i was so befuddled
tandks85 (4:48:13 AM): so i went online to do my research
tandks85 (4:48:15 AM): and it was confirmed
tandks85 (4:48:22 AM): fml. all these fucking years erick
hella agg (4:48:55 AM): looool
-----------------------6/13/2012-----------------------
Unconventional Methodologies
tandks85 (1:45:34 PM): sometimes i don't even vacumm
tandks85 (1:45:39 PM): i lint roller my whole room
DancerNboardr408 (1:45:43 PM): okay
tandks85 (1:45:45 PM): LOL
DancerNboardr408 (1:45:46 PM): youre officially a freak
DancerNboardr408 (1:45:52 PM): this is going on facebook
DancerNboardr408 (1:45:54 PM): im sorry
DancerNboardr408 (1:45:57 PM): LOL
tandks85 (1:45:59 PM): yknow. sometimes those vacumm can't pick up the things you want it to pick up tandks85 (1:46:02 PM): LMAO
tandks85 (1:46:03 PM): fuuuuuuu
DancerNboardr408 (1:47:52 PM): BUAHAHAA
-----------------------6/19/2012-----------------------
One Step too Late
tandks85 (2:46:40 AM): remember that fart i delievered one night?

hella agg (2:46:45 AM): yes
hella agg (2:46:47 AM): it was horrible
tandks85 (2:47:02 AM): i think i'm about to having another "moment"
hella agg (2:47:08 AM): wut
hella agg (2:47:17 AM): you're gonna fart?
hella agg (2:47:17 AM): haha
tandks85 (2:47:35 AM): i always try to run outside my room but sometimes i am one step too late.
hella agg (2:47:41 AM): LOL
-----------------------7/31/2012-----------------------

Hopeless Romantics
hella agg (6:41:51 PM): i'm just the kind of person that likes to do these things face to face, you know?
tandks85 (6:41:58 PM): welll i do too
hella agg (6:42:09 PM): we're romantics tan
hella agg (6:42:09 PM): ahah

tandks85 (6:42:26 PM): fuck we are.
tandks85 (6:42:29 PM): god damnit


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Touch a Soul, Heal a Heart.: A Personal Log.

I find ways to touch the soul and speak to the heart. I always have and always will. That's just the nature of my personality. I can't really describe how much of a valuable conversation that can take place between two people. When I feel strongly about someone or something, my subconscious self kicks in. I don't know if I'm just going through the motion or it's just some spiritual process that is beyond my control but I feel like I can really touch people's lives when I come up with some enlightening passages. Sometimes, I can't really explain how I can come up with such quotes, sayings, or dialogues but what I do know is that whether the message was flirtatious, intentional or subliminal, it will always hold some form of merit. And more truthfully so, it feels great to have someone experience the situation rather than have it explained to them.

But enough with this let's take a look at some things to live by, admire, hate, question, and ponder about. And to those who have found themselves to be part of this uplifting log, and recall any of the conversations that took place, consider yourself awesome because Tan just found a special place for both of us.

p.s. Giving myself too much credit? DGAF! :]

---PHILOSOPHY/LIFE---

me: "Well, it's what we do, not what we think, that matters most."

me "Don't ask for too much; just want a lot."

me: "I'm no firm believer in God or a higher being due to my more bias-ism towards science and evolution but what I do believe is that we're given all these beautiful resources and we are our own self-creator and are responsible to find purpose in life and devote meaning into it. We're all Gods. What we make out of it is what people define us as."

---FOOD---

me: "My standards for food sees no limit; as long as the food sits well in my belly I will continue eating you."

---PAST---

---MOTIVATIONAL---

me: "Screw the past! You live on with life and appreciate what you already have and gained. If a candle light is unlit you light that shit right back up."

---LOVE---

me: "All you can do is all she allows you to do, so don't do more."

me: "You know, someone leaves for a reason. It's because someone else better comes along to replace them."

me: "If I wanted you I would have asked so politely long time ago like a gentlemen. Don't fish with bait, fish with class. I don't wait for things to happen. I just don't let a rope with a piece of meat dangle in the middle of the water hoping Somethings just have to be experienced, not explained. Can't just leave a bait on there thinking you can get away with the situation. If I wanted to fish like a real man I'd go in there with a spear and catch you. Because...you're just that type."

---DECISIONS---

---INSPIRATION---

me: "Great minds think alike but better minds come together."

---HAPPINESS---

me: "Honestly, do whatever that makes you happy the most, real talk. Happiness comes from realizing how bless you are even despite hardships, learning to love even through heartbreaks, and forgiving when it hurts too much and knowing with each opportunity you get in life is only a testimony to something even greater."

me: "The happiest people in life doesn't have the best of everything they just make the best of everything they have."

Silence in Scum

I've never...felt so dumbfounded and distraught. Really. I guess it's a great paradox to say those who are comfortable with each other can sit without speaking. But apparently that's just the opposite with some other people. To be sitting down next to someone who literally steals your breath away your voice becomes only shallower. I don't know what it was it could have been anything. Hope, fear, nervousness, happiness. Suddenly I knew I never felt as strongly for another person as I did at that moment. Had it been possible, I wished I never stood frozen. Frozen in thoughts that I couldn't freely express myself. I wanted to tell her my thoughts. I wanted to interject in between the conversations and offer a piece of saying. I wanted to really say something, but the sound of her voice silenced the emotions inside me. I really don't know what it was. My throat was tightened by the constancy of thoughts. My eyes were so locked at fluent tongues.I could only smiled softly and nod because for the very first time in a very long time did I feel the way I felt that night. I haven't been this close and personal with another person in years. And when it happened, the world stopped revolving around me. At that very singular point in time and space, what was most important in the universe was that piece of matter. It was dark, it was chaotic, it was mysterious, it was unknown, it was an energy to be reckon with nevertheless. It was gravitationally responsible for my shortcoming and indeed it was. And from what we know about our universe every dying star in our universe dies a violent death. This is exactly what it felt like.

I'm sorry for you having to experience what you did that night. I'm sorry for speechlessly telling you that silence is always the best answer. I'm sorry for making you feel like silence is betrayal. I'm sorry for being that mirror because I've always thought you needed another perspective of yourself with someone else there. I'm really not one too hate nor fear, I really ain't. And if you ever felt either I don't blame you. I'm different in many respects that some people to this day still can't figure out and admire. But for you to privately attack my persona really did feel like a star in the universe that ended so unexpectedly. I honestly could not blame you for your feelings and most certainly could not accuse you of your wrongdoings. I'm someone who easily forgives but hardly forgets.

I'm not asking for any repent. I want you to know that you've been forgiven way before you even got into greater details about how much of a scum I was. All that I have ever wished for that night was to openly listen to you because deep down I really know there's a much greater problem in the universe that you yourself couldn't explain. All I wanted you to know was that a second opinion or ears were something you wanted all along. All that I have hoped for was to know you better but who really knows at this point. I'm sorry nonetheless.

"Too many people seem to believe that silence was a void that needed to be filled, even if nothing important was said."
— Nicholas Sparks (Nights in Rodanthe)